i dont understand guys!!!!!

Dear blog,
i am in a dilemma again. my exams are coming soon i am stressed up about it and also about guys. P seems happy with his gf okay. i get it i am forgetting him i can resist my urge for fb...but why is he liking all my status or post that i put up!!! i mean it often confuse me. i know he is my friend that i had since 14 years lost contact and now i got to know each other again. but i never like his status or pictures always avoiding!!! then why the fuck is he confusing me?!? OKAY FINE IGNORE P

Next is K. K called me and we finally talked. he called me 3X a day and such and we often chat then i think i fell for him...why the heck is my heart involved in everything when its job is to pump blood!!! i mean GOD why are u playing with my feelings my love? r u happy to see me suffering for it..is this some kind of exposure coz i seriously fucking hate it!!!! i HATE IT!!!

    ONE MOMENT THE GUY COMES AND PLANT LOVE SEED IN MY HEART AND GOES AWAY WITH A GIRLFRIEND~~~  I MEAN HELLO!!!!!!!! its stressful i feel like crying...i dont seem to understand them..its always mixed emotions that im getting?!? why why why why why///god god god god god~```` this is insane and crazy and idiot..
      they talk to me and flirts or i dont know if thats their nature or something???? then the next thing is they get over me..WTH?!?!?  they think im their sister and i am a source of joke and MISS ADVICER!!! that listens to problem

     looks like my life is gonna be boring i wont have a tremendous love story like all in those novels and movies which corrupt girls mind like me. why is it so easy for others to love and hook up except me??? i have more advantage than them but then why??? all my friends have boyfriend..except me???? why oh gosh i am gonna concentrate on my studies now but this is also bothering me

why? what is so least about me?

why? why? why?

  he loves my friend..i meant S!!!!! he likes her...he likes her...my friend told me. He chatted with her for so long and he told he wants a girl like my friend! why..he said there are so many choices for his girlfriend. why is all guys jerk. and why he didnt like me...why am i always not an option for the guys for love but instead for advice,,,why!!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!

        I feel so down... and he said he wants a girl if he ran out of cash..then he changed and said he wants a girl like my friend... :'( i feel so down. and a nut. I mean even my guy friend wonders why does guys dont like me? they think i am just a sense of humor who doesnt have any value is it?

     i tried by best looking presentable infront of him and very much looked and gave a good impression but all he does was aaaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhh he asked about is this d class for maths in a rude way!!!!!!!

After mock

Oh dear its been a tiring week and month. I think i screwed my mock like all 5 of it...im afraid i might fail all of it :/ die case to d max!!!!!!!!
        it ended with bio and now i am down with a soar throat and flu. Sucks to be sick. Im so drowsy right now after eating those medicines.

       My life pretty much is hectic and sucks!!!!! i mean mock ended n im down with a flu and my toes hurt bc i was wearing a slipper in college for 6 hours. I mean the slippers was the wrong one and it caused my toes skin to peel of...it hurts man on both legs!!!! and i m having my period now (PMS-ING) not a good time.

         i feel irritated with K, S and P!!!!
 K well sms me and im starting to get bored. And S likes my friend and its obvious during the test he wished her goodluck and wanted to sit near her. And the another K the one in my class. I found out he likes a girl in his class but dont know who?!? i thought it was me but then looking and judging from his body language i dont think so/ He seeems not interested. Whereas P is happily with his gf with their dp changing all the time. i couldnt see the gf because she created a new profile and didnt add me yet!! -.- such an ass!!!

           Well why does all the guys dont like me or seem interested in me???? i m approachable but sometimes i feel shy i mean the guy should take a step first before me. looks like my predictions is true i will get into an arranged marriage>- : why god why? i mean even a not so good looking girls could get a bf..but me??? why????

Busy bee!!!!

Dear blog,
its been awhile since i had blogged! so many things happened during these period. firstly is i finished my EE2 and my holiday ended like last week!!!! got back my papers AUSMAT SUNWAY!!!! and it sucked. i mean everyone dropped. i failed my psychology and my chemistry in the 40's haizzz sad :'(
    Miss Psychology was asking me what happened?!? even my bio was 60's maths miracle!! i PAssED with a 53 lol...the lecturers are advising all of us to buck up for mock as it is tougher!!!

     Gonna start serious now. i mean i am less on fb nowadays only through my handphone.so reason... P hooked up with K hmmm quite sad actually when he told me because i liked him. but somehow i dont feel the pain i mean i was hurt but it didnt put a lot of impact on me. i still stalk him on fb but yeah got to forget him...thank god he didnt post anything or any pleading to chat with me...so we r pretty much had cut our ties besides him liking my pic once but i m ignoring all his posts!! i think this is the best. my mum hates his mum so lets put it that way!
      Another thing is i m close to K not P's girlfriend..the guy with the same tuition! we text everyday. he is a really nice buddy but i hope it wont turned into love. i mean he is nice and such but appearance wise n he tells me he likes that gul n this gul so many of them!!! but he is nice la. so about S his grandma passed away...so i didnt really saw him in college for the past weeks. D chatted with me recently but yeah he like another girl i guess
       
 So yeah my life is miserable with all this guys!!! -_______- and my wace around the corner...arrggghhh stress right now i got to go back to my bio... she killed me with her homeworks :P

Guys are jerks!!!!

Dear blog,

  I am almost completing ausmat in sunway. Life is not that easy...my crush! guy pressure all over my head!!!

 i mean P is not for me. i accept because he is a jerk! he smokes n drink. so i thought D likes me.it turns out to be D is interested in another girl. So i met K he is nice texts me every single day!!! but he is my friend!!! then i found out he texts every girls omg!!!!!! what was i thinking...S my crush likes my bestfriend... what in the world is happening?!?

     all the guys i like or thought they are interested in me just loves someone else...(Y)
i know they say the time will come but helloooo u serious???? my fourtune teller told me that i was gonna get in an arranged marriage?!????????????? which is soooooo not cool!!!!

     Well perhaps i will stay single n die single ;( whateva la!!!! not interested now the time will come we will see!!!!
        

Why is it always the nice girls dont seem to get the guys?

Dear readers,
from the title itself u could probably guessed it!

why is it that the nice girls dont seem to get a guy?!? in fact all the guys go after them just to seek for advise.
To be honest, i am one of the nice girl. i m not bitchy n i m a bit sarcastic but why do guys dont seem to like me. I fall in love with my guyfriends but instead they just seek for my advise for the girl they like!!!!!!

   sometimes i feel that they are using me but the truth is i am nothing more than a friend!
I have friends. They are nice too but they have boyfriends...am i too intimidating?!?

   i dress nicely,classy, i speak approriately i dont really use vulgar words, i am friendly n when it comes to guys i talk to them nicely if they talk to me ofcourse. i m not a slut n obviously not a bitch but y????

     i notice when i was in tuition guys was afraid to talk to me. And i even overheard a comment from one of the guys saying that i am a nice girl!. n another friend of mine said i am innocent.. what the hell...looks like i will never meet my prince charming. No wonder my mum saw my jathagam ( fortune teller) it seems i will be involved in arrange marriage!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i just hope that wont happen...like come on!!! arrange marriage in 2000's stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holiday!!!!

yes it is holiday!!!
 i had just completed my sem 2 test like yesterday!!!! n today i am basically doing nothing dont even know what to do...mum is busy she has this prayers going on...my sister is at school -___-

  so yeah i went on fb like yesterday. i was pretty excited bc i was gonna chat with P. I MEAN HE WILL START THE CHAT! i waited waited n waited but the problem was he didnt appear. instead he went on9 n of9 and on9 and off9!!!! so frustrating!!!

   i thought he wanted to avoid me or something but then today morning he liked my status! -___- i cant seem to understand this guys mind!!!! such an idiot!!!!!

     he seems really close with the girl he has crush on but what can i say i took him for granted.he flirt with me but i was no more than his friend facebook friend!!!!  to make things worst i dreamt of him!!!!!!

   the dream was so weird!!!!! extremely weird!!!!! like to d max..i dreamt of him prank calling me!!!!!! such an ass man!!! k i think i am so gonna bath!!! its getting late :D