Life After SPM :'(

its been a month already since i received my spm result,I was expecting high but didnt get through.i did badly infact! 5A n 4 B...I KNOW SMART ASSES WILL SAY THAT ITS BAD...others okay or said u did well or maybe they r comforting me...it started in a bright mysterious morning where most of them couldnt sleep well excluding me.i guess i was too tired of college and stuff just joined about 2 days sunway university...so i slept...as i went to the school.i was one of the early birds just waiting for it to arrive and i thought i will come out hug my mum with tears of joy...my mum and dad was so confident i was gonna get 9 A's ...they always said that and maybe i was confident hoping for a miracle to happen in add maths chem bio physics...i thought that was all to enter medicine field....but that was my weakest subs...i was good at the other 5 A's ....so every one gathered at the assunta Art Gallery and i couldnt believe it everyone was rushing to take it...there was pictures before the results and i put on a smile with my heart thudding loud...and when teacher distributed.........
    
    most of them was unhappy except i heard 2-3 girls screaming from my class which was surprising coz my class is the top class in assunta! we could hear and see the sc 2's screaming almost everyone...and as usual i got to wait long time bc my name is the last on the list!!!! so as soon as i saw my friend K she got 8A and 2 B which freaked me out..and then mine...i was shock distraught and speechless i got B for the weaker subs and 2A+ 1A and 3 A- all i thought at that very moment was my parents face
  I saw my aunt and she sew mine first -.- then it was time to face my mum who was waiting down...on my way i saw my friend V showing her results and she saw me and mentioned my name but i didnt reply or respong instead walked to my mum..
   My mum was flashing those 100 megawatts smile with flickering lights...i told her i got 5 A and 4 B i saw her dissapointed but she didnt show me...and i think she is happy for me...but that didnt concern me...it was more to my dad who will scream and drag it for another 2 years!!!!!!!! i cried on the spot..i embarassed myself...my mum called my dad and informed him he just said 'ok'!!! i guessed he said that bc he was with his customer!!!! and he called again and said i didnt study well enough!!!! WTF I STUDIED LIKE NO ONE'S BUSINESS...my teacher called and was shocked...every1 they thought like that too...but ppl were saying that this year they purposely did that so that many of us wont obtained straight A's in order to obtain the scholarship! something fishy i guess...i even loss faith in god for a while bc i was so angry with myself ...i felt like dying but i managed to overcome all that...anyway i m checking my paper...i just give up and hopes for another 2-3 A's to help!!!!! not for me but my parents sake