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   HI BLOG....WE MEET AGAIN. THIS OBVIOUSLY MEAN I AM EMO-ING!!!!

    after a 1 week long break ( to be precise 9 days) i finally went back to college today. I actually though i will not get back my evaluation exam mark so soon as it just ended 1 week ago. But i was wrong!
   mr.oliver came in and gave back the results. I got 14%!!! it is good but as usual S kicked my ass -_____-
   i wAS NOT PISSED ...the weird part is we checked our semester 1 and everything i checked is 64/ 100 after counting everything and  S had 67/100 as far as she checked...but then we rechecked of course my mark is correct but hers was weird she suppose to get 65..even she agreed but she did not tell me directly :/ but ofcourse i did not complain or else the scene will be ugly
  moving on to bio  (; i managed to do preety well. mAYBE i suit to be a biologist compared to chemist -.- coz i really like it or maybe coz this is just the beginning :( well i managed to beat S :) but then i realised a very important value
 for chem we got back our result..it was horrible, horrific and puke whatever i failed the paper like really badly seriously badly... S got way higher than me. In fact she did preety well -.- like really well there are a difference of 6 % between us. So u can estimate it ;) but S advised me in a way like you should read meaning study :/ i studied its not like i dont but i didnt have enough time to complete half the paper :(
 i feel like crying my maths and chem is really bad. I should buck up to improve at least 1 so that i wont get a low atar and then cannot enter medicine..i m seriously freaking scared.

   well before chem i was with S as usual in the morning i undergo friend neglection by S -.- then...................... S 's friend a guy by the name of N came and hang out. its not like he said hi or even S introducing! but thats not the point.  he talked about girls and kutuk girls like shit! i just dont know why. he said he broke up with his gf bc he called her a bitch and he was a player at that time -.- this definitely impact on me. because i dont trust guys and i am afraid to start a relationship as i am afraid i might just choose the wrong one :(
anyway signing off gul in the purple scarf going back to her colourful world but and especially her herself is purple..happiness and gloomness and emo-ing and sadness anxiety at the same time..whatever emotion you name it ;)